I can do this!

So... I've officially concluded that I am beyond fat...

I need to get down to a weight that will leave me not only lighter but also happier. My weight has been the bane of my existence. Therefore, now that I've lost 4.2 pounds this past week and look to another week of success, I am hoping that I will be able to get down to my target weight of 110-115 by next June... around my birthday time.

My mother has continued to reiterate the notion that I need to be thinner... and I do believe that I could be a lot healthier if I were a bit less fat. But I am giving myself this year to breathe and focus on my own health... I know that I can do this with everyone's help and support... So let's get that show on the road... :)

I am sure that I can lose at least another 15 lbs by summer's end, another 20 by christmas, and the rest by June... It shouldn't be too bad since I was able to lose 33 lbs in about 7 months and maintain for another 8 months before I got too busy to work out again...

I have been pondering a lot about this fact that I will be unemployed and I look to it with a bit of pause... I do not regret having quit my job in this state of economic turmoil but I am definitely amused at how I am getting a variety of job opportunity emails from my network of advisors, job agencies, etc. I am very amused because this at least is somewhat of a comfort. I always knew that having dual certification for teaching both ESL and Spanish from the K-12 levels would be extremely beneficial. Now as I continue this particular degree, the emails that I have gotten only seem to reiterate the point that God will take care of me this year and open up a plethora of opportunities next year... And for that, I am both grateful AND excited...

Though very work-heavy, I am excited to be in school again and returning to a campus that I've loved over the years... NYU is home to me and I look forward to more IV Bible Studies, more big-sib/lil-sib dates, more introspective musings, and most of all, a group of friends I know I will always be able to count on... I look forward to solidifying my ties to Hosanna, although still relatively difficult. This year of transition leaves me hopeful for the rest of the years I spend there... no matter how long that actually will be...

I find great comfort in my boyfriend as he has continued to push and challenge me... It's been a very interesting 16 months and I'm still completely in awe of all that God's done and excited for what God's going to do... I'm still really happy and the butterflies still remain...

God has done so much in this last year that leaves me still speechless and shocked at the blessings He continues to pour out... In this last year, I have learned so much about support from my sisters, huge transitions, my passion for teaching, loving co-workers, and the love and support from my boyfriend. He has remained very constant in my life and while I don't know if this is a good thing, I can never stay mad at him... and he knows it! The conversations and fun banter that we go through never ceases to amaze me and still leaves a smile on my face...

Ok... time to get back to work before class starts in about an hour and a half...