Relationships Schmelationships...

As life's challenges continue to overtake me, I have realized that I'm very slow in trusting God right now. It's gotten to a point where as much as I know He loves me, that He has great plans for me, that He knows and has plans for Kevin and I, that He truly will direct my path as long as I trust, I seem to hesitate.

In light of wedding and engagement season, I'm not expecting anything to change between Kevin and I. I'm not expecting that he propose because I know that we're not there yet and that we have plenty that we still need to get through before we are truly deemed ready for that next point in our lives. It's not that we don't want that next step but rather that we're making preparations towards our futures and it's not applicable for us to take that next step at this very moment. We will get to that point when God deems it right. It's been a rough week and a half between preparing for an upcoming wedding to talking about marriage and engagements and I know that when the going gets tough, even between the both of us, that there's beauty and growth within our struggles because it does draw us closer to each other and to a clearer understanding of who we are as individuals and how we will hopefully be able to mesh together as one...

Psalm 37:4 - 5 says: "Delight yourselves in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, trust Him and He will do this..."