Can't Fight This Feeling... :)

Feels kind of representative of what I'm feeling... haha :)

Verse 1:
I can't fight this feeling any longer,
And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow,
What started out as friendship has grown stronger,
I only wish I had the strength to let it show.

Pre-Chorus:
And even as I wonder, I'm keeping you in sight,
You're a candle in the window on a cold, dark winter's night,
And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might...

Verse 2:
My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you,
I've been running round in circles in my mind,
And it always seems that I'm following you, girl,
'Cause you take me to the places that alone I'd never find...

It's just interesting how life turns out... haha Kevin told me I was an awesome girlfriend today and it was funny because the lyrics of the song popped out as I heard the song... It's been an amazing 1.5 years. I'm still kind of in awe of the last year and a half. Sure, we've had our tiffs and arguments over stupid, silly things but we learn from them... We're going through everything together and we are closer because of it... We are heading places that we never really saw as options... :)

The part in bold reminded me of how freaked out we were (maybe more me than him?) when we first started discussing even the notion of being in a relationship with each other... how I came to realize that we had spoken a lot in the year before we dated and that we shared a lot of ourselves with each other before he even took the lead to define the relationship... how our friendship really did strengthen itself in the year before we started dating even though we hadn't spoken very much in the years prior... how we just kind of picked up where we left off as friends and just let God take the lead...haha it's as if we're in a dance with God and seeing exactly where the end of the dance is... I'm no longer afraid of facing paths together because that's what God has done with each of us...

Funny how Rich's engagement makes me think of these things...and what you now realize is so unbelievably more important than dwelling on his engagement... :) Still can't believe he's engaged but overall, I'm glad because I have my sisters, I have Kevin, I have my family, I have God... and all of them are actually in the country! :D That's the best gift of all...

It's my life... and that's my reality.

With that said, I am deliriously in love with my boyfriend and his silly antics. He always has the ability to make me laugh even when I'm mad...

::shakes head but smiles::